Here I am, slogging late into the night.. Not that late, maybe, but past 9, trying to finish my CRP. Sigh. But I'm so distracted by stuff. Like guitar and TA and more work and the prospect of getting spikes. I must really train hard if I do. Like I'm quite free in Term 4. I will get more points for Buckley next year. Really. I can try to fight Roys in triple. But there isn't much hope of beating him. Is 2.4 tomorrow? I need to run sub 1:30 per round in order to hit 10:30.

But amidst all the busyness of work and stuff I almost completely forgot about God. Haven't exactly been staying on the narrow path of late. Like jumping. I dunno. Sometimes I feel its more of personal glory than anything else. Than for God's glory. Sometimes I really wonder, after hearing countless times, "for God's glory, for God's glory, for God's glory", I just really wonder, what does it mean to do it for the glory of God? To be able to swallow my pride everytime I achieve something? And to be able to say, "Praise the Lord for his blessing"? What does it mean really? 1 Corinthians 10:31, "Whether, therefore, ye eat, or drink, or whatsoever ye do, do all to the glory of God." If it is that, then I've got to work on what is in my heart. I mean, after all, "The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately wicked: who can know it?" (Jeremiah 17:9) I mean, we all can say glorify God and stuff. But do we really mean it?

May the words of my mouth and the thoughts of my heart

Bless Your name, bless Your name, Jesus

And the deeds of the day and the truth in my ways

Speak of You, speak of You, Jesus

For this is what I'm glad to do

It's time to live a life of love that pleases You

And I will give my all to You

Surrender everything I have and follow You

I'll follow You

Lord, will You be my vision, Lord, will You be my guide

Be my hope, be my light and the way

And I'll look not for riches, nor praises on earth

Only You'll be the first of my heart

For this is what I'm glad to do

It's time to live a life of love that pleases You

And I will give my all to You

Surrender everything I have and follow You

I'll follow You

I will follow

I will follow

I will follow You