I was thinking about writing something and something to write last night. But I forgot.

Surreal. Yes, Talia. Surreal. Or did you ever sit down and fast forward your life in your head, beyond A levels, beyond NS, beyond graduating from university with a degree and first class honours or whatever qualification it is they consider very commendable, beyond your job interview, beyond your career, beyond your salary, beyond your mid-life crisis, beyond your eventual retirement, beyond your adjustment into old age, beyond your last, faint, gasping, or perhaps peaceful moments on your deathbed, beyond your funeral which probably isn't very relevant to you and into plain, dark, nothingness. And finally, the judgment seat of Christ, to whom it may concern and then on into life eternal with God on high, worshipping Him for all eternity.

Eternity. Now, I admit, the thought scares me sometimes. Let's face it, we're all used to closure. At the end of a broken relationship, a lost relative, a troubling persecution, what are we all so used to? Closure. An end, to any kind of event, happy, sad, joyful, melancholic, all things as we know it now, will one day be at an end. And then? Eternity. I was, for some time, extremely unsettled by the thought of death, nothingness, and all that follows thereafter. But now I'm slightly, if not pretty much more assured, that we'll be spending our time praising the our Creator for all He's worth and all He's done for all eternity. Eternity won't be enough. I tell you the truth, just typing it out now does make me tremble because eternity isn't something to be trifled with. But I know that while we're on this earth, we'll do everything we can to bring more to know Him and prepare for the kingdom.

But when that train of thought ends, I blink and look around. At my temporal surrounding, environment, problems. Which just a moment ago, loomed overhead, threatening to crush me into submission, oblivion. But now they retreat into a small, dark corner, outdone in their momentary wisp of an existence by the eternal nature of God and our relationship with Him. And I am comforted, because I suddenly remember the purpose of my existence, now a refreshed thought in my head, and it overrides all current troubles and makes them look like stepping stones up to our glorious hope. Which of course, they are. Everything is fine, now.

If only I hold this thought with me every moment of the day.