This isn't really what I'd hoped it turn out to be but I guess what's done is done, right? There's an awful lot of decisions or choices I'd unmake or reverse or negate or demolish or destroy had I the opportunity to. But I can't. Somehow this blog's been like my spirirtual life, somewhat. And this being my first post in 2 months, it's kind of easy to tell how I have inadvertently been straying, haven't I? Just like how every single time I couldn't be bothered to post, was the way I couldn't bring myself to pray or do QT or forgive or whatever it was. But now it's different. I'm not going to look back now. Because every time I did I fell.

Anyway I find it incredibly telling and typical that just before an exam comes I start looking to God for answers. I mean, of course I should always look to God, but not treat Him as a wishing well or the answer to problems that I can't be bothered to solve myself, right?

My plans for a memory verse fell through the roof.

I don't do this because I am 'so holy'. I do it for precisely the converse. Because I am NOT 'so holy'.

I am sorry that I have not written you that letter. I am also sorry that I have not written you that letter. I promise I will get cracking after the exams, and that's a promise. I will not renege on that. After the exams. Should I have taken TSD, then? Please bring me back?