Et bien, j'ai dix-sept ans. 'Enfin!' 'Vive la liberte!' Or.. Not. Well RJ definitely is not what we had made it out to be, but who am I to complain. I have a lot of things to do. I have to remember it's my 'born-again' day that is cause for celebration. That aside, I'm thankful, Lord for creating me and shielding me these past 17 years. I am so much older from what I once was. There's no going back there. It's all upward from here. I'll never again walk through those familiar corridors and buildings without my heart in my mouth and that bittersweet feeling when I remember the times when we would have so much fun within the 4 insulated walls of our classroom that formed our retrospectively very near-utopian world. We were a family. And then we got estranged. How much of it will stay together and remain together in, say, 20 years? Sometimes I feel empty. God you are always with me and in my heart. Still, I'm sorry that I always feel lacking and that I'm always in want for a close christian friend. Everyone close to me is so far. Well, you know what I mean. In Australia, in university, estranged, in AC, in another class. Thank you Lord for teaching me to rely on you. But when my mom tells me that I ought to have a good friends on earth to lean on 'cause no man is an island, then I'm torn between practical advice, and faith and reliance on God. Or is it for me to ask you Lord? Anyway I am upbeat about th second half of the year. Please help me keep the faith, and continually be transformed and to shape my everything according to your Will. Help me also not to lose heart halfway, and to continue persevering when I've lost motivation. Please use me to make a difference to people around me, and help me really. I'm so far into my teens already and yet I'm so dependent, immature, and incapable. God I acknowledge my unworthiness and filthiness. Please purify and work in me. All praise honour and glory be to God.