Well I never - Blogger now tracks the number of page views I have. But anyway I just need to get this off my chest. It seems increasingly hard to be a good son. Just about everything I do is wrong. I am very discouraged by that. Maybe I need some time in the army to draw close to God. I don't know; how come my time spent with God isn't changing me> How come I am hurting instead of encouraging those around me? This really messes with my mind. I must pray more.