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"He will surely be gracious to you at the sound of your cry. As soon as he hears it, he answers you. And though the Lord give you the bread of adversity and the water of affliction, yet your Teacher will not hide himself anymore, but your eyes shall see your Teacher. And your ears shall hear a word behind you, saying, “This is the way, walk in it,” when you turn to the right or when you turn to the left." (Isaiah 30:19-21) Clinging to this promise.

Oh LORD, help me for I am so lost. I have no idea what to do or where to start. Help me God to seek You. Rather, seek me, O God, for I know that left to myself, I would sooner fall into my own sinfulness. Answer me, O God, when I call to You; incline Your ear to hear my voice! Hasten to me when I call upon Your name, LORD, for my soul is exceedingly sorrowful and downcast! LORD, I am weak and sinful. Great is my iniquity! Guide my thoughts and my actions, O God! May they always worship and serve You!

Well I never - Blogger now tracks the number of page views I have. But anyway I just need to get this off my chest. It seems increasingly hard to be a good son. Just about everything I do is wrong. I am very discouraged by that. Maybe I need some time in the army to draw close to God. I don't know; how come my time spent with God isn't changing me> How come I am hurting instead of encouraging those around me? This really messes with my mind. I must pray more.

The ring signifies three things.

First, when I am tempted to be upset, hurt, bitter, angry, resentful, judgmental, critical, at anyone or no one in particular, it shall remind me that my sin is ever before me (literally) and that I am invariably as sinful as the other, if not more.

Second, it serves to remind me that True Love Waits whenever a pretty girl comes along who catches my eye. For that matter, it serves to remind me that True Love Waits whenever a girl comes along who catches my eye. This is also by extension a call to and reminder for purity.

Finally, playing with it and clenching my fist only reminds me of how poorly the ring fits around my finger, and how fitting, for this world is not my home; I'm just a-passing through. Though I have chosen to constantly torment myself with that reality, it is as it is - entirely real, and so a choice seemingly foolish for endlessly unnerving me in the present shall reap its reward in eternity when I gain satisfaction upon understanding.

But on a lighter note, placing it on my index finger is an obstacle to barring chords.

I think I have much to say now but I just need to say something quickly. I thank God for the Youth Retreat that has taken place, and for speaking to us all and perhaps drawing us closer to Himself in this time. I pray that I will be able to trust in Him and pray His love in my life daily. I know my circumstances don't seem as bad as those of the people around me but I find it equally hard a struggle to be constantly seeking Jesus and seeking to know Him. Just like how I woke up this morning and found myself strangely, unexpectedly and disconcerting distant from Jesus and almost as if I didn't know that He was there. But I thank God that He is, whether I choose to believe or no, and that yes, He will grant me the grace I need to rely on Him fully.

Psalm 119:176 "I have gone astray like a lost sheep; seek your servant, for I do not forget your commandments."

This verse strangely but accurately describes me now. Having sung God's praise and proclaimed His faithfulness at length, I find that I have suddenly gone astray, and gotten lost. Yet there is hope in it for me: "seek your servant, for I do not forget your commandments."